I am about ready to throw up my hands and give up the good fight. The battle with the cat and dog hair, the litter tracked all over the floor, food scattered around the food bowl, and keeping all the inside and outside furry critters happy  is driving me absolutely crazy! I'm losing my mind; I swear I am!I try to be as Janet and little Michael, courageous and bold. I try to have the patience of Jenn and Hazel. I seek the wisdom and understanding of Joan. I need Mary's ability to cope. However, I find myself without courage, patience, wisdom and the strength to cope. I have read such wonderful inspirational pieces--thank you Strider, but I fail miserably in finding that inner peace and beauty right now. I have read of the many trials that some are enduring, and I tell myself that I have so much for which to be thankful, but I sink lower into that murky dismal mood. Why am I such a whiner?On a different note, my daughter's bum of a husband has another radio job in Plainview, Texas. I guess they haven't done enough research on their new employee. Hubby gives him about three weeks or so before he does something stupid there. Grandson has been messaging me on myspace and wants to come home as soon as he gets them moved. He is finally seeing the bum in a realistic way. Whether he will make it back or not remains to be seen. I know that he worries about his mom, but he will never have any life whatsoever until he gets away from them. Grandson told me that he and his mom have pawned everything of theirs, but the bum has been holding onto his treasures. What a piece of work!I don't know how he will get back and forth for trial dates, for Plainview is quite far from Greenville. I wish that they would put the bum beneath the jail! No, I have absolutely no compassion for that scumbag at all!Whew, now I feel better since I have vented and whined my heart out. I think that I might find a little of Janet's courage, Jenn's patience and Mary's coping skills. Thanks, guys! I needed that!I left out Joan's wisdom and understanding, for it will take more than venting for me to achieve that!

Comments:

Hey, angie...I hope you are feeling better and I am so glad you vented like you did. Letting it out HAS to be done, whether vocally or on paper (or both). I sure hope your grandson makes a decision he feels good about because everybody's got enough stress already. I know he feels he should stay to watch over his mom...and that is wonderful that he feels and cares that way...but he also has to realize that his mom makes an awful lot of the decisions herself (which isn't always the best way of watching over him) and she would probably do the same if he wasn't there...because it doesn't appear she is going to change. (Not right away, anyway.) If he leaves, it doesn't mean he stopped loving her or caring for her, just that it was his time to move away and move on. They can still stay in touch if they want to, so it's not like he's just taking off on her. Now, I do hope you are calmer and that all your furry friends are back to being your pals again...and not the bothersome furballs your anxieties have made them seem like to you.

Angie, So sorry you are going through so much right now. It's overwhelming. I hope it evens out soon.

I'm just glad your Grandson has had the opportunity to come to these opinions on his own. Hang in there and I'm sorry for your chaotic life right now.. I'm sure it is so difficult for you since you need organization. My ex was that way too and although I don't understand it (i'm the slob) I feel bad for the messes you have to endure. I know now how frustrating it can be for the ones that truly "need" it for a sense of security and comfort.

Sometimes you just need to let it all out! And I don't blame you one bit. It's horrible to see the ones you love spiral down because they are latched onto a bum like that.

Oh jeez, Angie...I'm humbled. Because I feel this way this morning...

Angie, you are going through a lot. It would be heaven sent if your grandson were able to stay with you... for both him and for you. I'm glad you've got the sweet kitten to keep you busy. It's a lucky kitten indeed to have you! Take care...

comment by sunlight on June 7, 2008 11:17 PM ()

Yes, I do understand. You've had a lot on your plate. I really don't have an excuse for being gone... not one that makes any sense.

reply by sunlight on June 8, 2008 4:25 PM ()

I have missed you girl! Now you realize what has been going on and why I was away for so long. I was having such a difficult time coping but finally came to terms and decided that their choices are just that--theirs.

reply by angiedw on June 8, 2008 4:08 AM ()

I hope your grandson comes and lives with you. It doesn't sound like a good situation at all right now.

comment by hopefields on June 7, 2008 8:10 PM ()

It's so sad that his mother does not see the stress they are creating and placing over him. No child should have to make that kind of decision. I hope he decides to come stay with you. It sounds like he really needs to get away from it all.

reply by hopefields on June 8, 2008 8:40 PM ()

I just checked his myspace mood--he is stressing over making the right decision--to leave or to stay. I think that he feels he must watch over his mom, and he doesn't want to hurt us. I wrote him saying that he must decide what will make him happy and not worry about trying to fix things that he can't fix. I feel so sorry for him and how their choices are affecting him.

reply by angiedw on June 8, 2008 4:11 AM ()

Phew!

Having a bit of a whinge is just the thing.

As long as one doesn’t make it a lifetime event…

comment by dazeymae on June 7, 2008 6:37 PM ()

I know--I am basically a very happy person, but yesterday must have been one of my little white pills day, for I was definitely in a mood. No pills but mellow on my own today. I just need to say thing aloud sometimes to put them in their perspective. Thanks for being a shoulder.

reply by angiedw on June 8, 2008 4:13 AM ()

hahahaha I can't imagine that

comment by mustakim on June 7, 2008 5:54 PM ()

You are so crazy! I hope that the lack of paragraphing didn't cause you too much trouble in reading! I was certainly in the funk yesterday!

reply by angiedw on June 8, 2008 4:16 AM ()

comment by honeybugg on June 7, 2008 5:42 PM ()

I know exactly what you are saying. My daughter used her children for years to get what she wanted from me and my folks. Now my parents are gone and her children are at an age that she can't use their fragility. Now she is going to have to deal with her own mess and decide what is really important to her. I know that it is a tough place for you to be right now, and I feel for you and the situation.

reply by angiedw on June 8, 2008 4:19 AM ()

Venting is good

comment by lynnie on June 7, 2008 3:29 PM ()

Well, things were the same when I finished venting, but they didn't seem to upset me as much--so it did its thing.

reply by angiedw on June 7, 2008 3:47 PM ()

I can empathize. My son in law is a jerk too and my daughter supports the family...ugh! Maybe your grandson will get free of them.

comment by elderjane on June 7, 2008 2:27 PM ()

I don't understand their control. I would have taken an iron skillet to him years ago! I hope that grandson will be able to break away from the situation. I really don't know if he will have the strength.

reply by angiedw on June 7, 2008 3:48 PM ()

With one gigantic paragraph, I figured you wrote with one big gulp of nitrous oxide! Whew! Hope you're feeling vented now.

comment by solitaire on June 7, 2008 12:51 PM ()

I have more trouble with posts when I add pictures. I had paragraphing but .... I didn't even take a breath!I do feel much better, thank you.

reply by angiedw on June 7, 2008 3:50 PM ()

*big hugs* oh angie we all go through times like this. can you just move your grandson back home? doesn't sound like a good environment for him and then you would have help with all the critters!

comment by elkhound on June 7, 2008 8:04 AM ()

It is such a complicated situation. I raised him for ten years, but he wanted to be with his mom. He has been in a terrible environment for 5 years now, but he worries about his mother and feels guilty about leaving her. I've tried to tell him that he cannot be responsible for her choices and needs to live his life, not hers.

reply by angiedw on June 7, 2008 3:53 PM ()

Son in law sounds like a jerk, hope they get out of that situation sooner than later

comment by ducky on June 7, 2008 7:12 AM ()

I hope that he will be held accountable for his actions this time. He has left ruin where ever he has been but has managed to walk away. This time I don't know if he will be able to manipulate the situation. He is a big jerk and much more!

reply by angiedw on June 7, 2008 3:55 PM ()

Well, my paragraphing went somewhere. Sorry guys!