Well, I have started the new job. The office is a wreck...I don't think they have been holding their employees accountable for awhile, and the woman who is now my boss is not very efficient. I have found a lot of things that need to be corrected...so at least it's a challenge. I needed a distraction.

T made it to the certification classes to do tattoos. He should just now be getting back. He called me today, and said that it should be 10 days until he moves...and goddamn am I so upset about that. I mean, I know...he needs this...he wants this badly, and he hasn't ever shown such motivation for anything...but where does that leave me?? I still wonder why he called me again...if he knew he was going to be this gung ho about going...he still hasn't mentioned if he is going to pay his child support off or not. No way he can in 10days...so I don't know...
Needless to say, I am in denial, and less that thrilled. my heart is aching again, and this time b/c I am going to get left behind. *sigh*

Still don't want to talk about it much, it makes me so upset...I can't go there again...I really can't.... but I love him so much...

I got denied for financial aid on my fafsa...we shall see what happens. It doesn't make much sense to base need on what I made last year. Don't they know that if I move up there, I will have to quit my job, hence a paycut??? Mom is going to call while I am at work tomorrow...If it's meant to be...it will be... That is my new theme song. I told mom today, I feel like I am hoovering over my life...numb....watching it pass...

*again with the sigh*