Again, almost a month....I am not really on the computer much...but it is nice to have.

Just got back from my Florida trip. T and I had a blast. We got to fly (his first time) and we were in a beautiful resort for 4 days. We got 4 "park hopper" passes to the parks (Disney World stuff...Magic Kingdom, MGM, Epcot, and the Animal Kingdom). It was great. We spent all day Friday and Saturday seeing the sights, and rides, and shows...AND the 20oz. cokes that cost $2.50 out of the vending machines!!! I guess I was a little naive, but I thought they would be feeding us...they did, but only the first night. It was like $7.50 for a hot dog, chips and a drink....It was expensive for food, but seeing as it was a very expensive, free trip...it was worth it. We got along really well...and he was very affectionate all weekend. We had such a great time, and lots of pics. Our camera sucked, so the pics aren't that great, but they capture the moment...and god it was a wonderful vacation. The weather was so nice, I could go outside, with wet hair, in a tank top, and be comfy. It was perfect weather!

Then back to reality, it's cold and rainy here...it may freeze tonight....

My job has been a horrible emotional roller coaster for the past month. The shit I mentioned in my last entry escalated so quickly, and the end result is still reeling in my brain. It almost ruined my vacation I was so worried about it. In a nutshell, the District Manager and a few others watched a bunch of the tapes from the store. There is no sound, and they basically saw what they wanted to see on the tapes. They had human resources come down and do a morale assessment (as they nit-picked through EVERYTHING) but they didn't get the complaints they were looking for. They came in the day before I left, and basically talked down to me, and really offended the shit out of me. They tried to fire our Asst. Mgr (he resigned before they could...really pissed them off) and I am suspended for 3 days (which even my store manager is blown away by this...poor guy) and then I will work the weekend at the store. After that, I am transferring to another store (different name, same company...i.e same benefits...vacation pay still there...) and demoting myself to Asst. CSSM (bookkeeper). They offered me a raise, and they are so excited to have me come work there. I talked to my new store manager today for the first time face to face, and he seemed tickled. Apparently, there have been many good things said about me (with the exception of my DM) and he is thrilled to have me on his staff. I am nervous, but a change is good. I needed some change. I am also looking into going to college,....I need to do something. Something for me...

More reality, T got served papers and has to go to court Wed. for child support. Apparently, over the past 8 months, although it has been paid sporadically, has gotten over $900 behind. Although he has basically been working and getting a shitty check to keep it paid now, it is still behind. He paid $542 (federal taxes) but we aren't sure if that is enough to keep him out of jail. I feel badly...but if he wouldn't have flipped out on me, and ruined everything...he wouldn't be behind. (the honest-non-sugar-coated truth) I hate this for him though...it breaks my heart. I wish I could help him, but I am not in a place where I really can...and I know I shouldn't anyways. I loaned him my car payment money for some bills, and he has 5 days to make it back before my shit is late (for the first time). I know I should let him learn on his own...but I hate to see him fall. If he falls this time, even I can't help him. I am not sure what I will do if he goes to jail...about anything. I guess we will just have to wait and see. I am not really sure where we stand as far as "future" goes...I just know that I love him, I am still cautious and paranoid (which I accepted when I started talking to him again) and I want what's best for him. I wish things would start picking up for him....he is starting to show signs of making things better for himself, I hope this doesn't fuck him up. We shall see...

I am thinking about getting another tattoo.. (provided he isn't in jail). A purple gladiolus, Probably on my forearm. For mom...she loves them...

Mom and dad are good. They got rid of my brother while I was gone, and had the weekend to themselves...

But now it's Monday, and reality comes crashing down...and you have to pick yourself up and start over...life sure has been interesting....I will try to keep better posts...