Am I wrong for being glad it isn't phone call day. It's been a rough few months and it seems like everyday I'm looking up legal issues online or calling a lawyer or waiting for a phone call from him. Sometimes I relish these non-phone call days. It gives me a chance to worry about me and where my life is taking me. Don't get me wrong I love him more than air. But this situation is rough. He knows how he's going to occupy his time the next few years. I on the other hand am left here in the free world with all these options. At present I am being a stay at home mom/housekeeper for my ex-husband and our seven year old son. Its a trying task sometimes in itself. If it wasn't he'd be my current husband instead of the ex. But I know if I don't go ahead and go forward with my life in some ways then when he does get out our lives will have progressed nowhere in the time he was away. So with that in mind I'm going back to school to become a paralegal and then I'd like to buy an acre or two of land where he and I can build our house once he's home. I'm not looking forward to the task of doing all this alone however I think it will probably make me stronger in the long run. Both he and I were always the needy codependant types anyways so maybe it will be good for both of us in alot of ways. I hope so. I worry about how much we'll both change in the years he's gone. Prison does that to people. I liked him just fine before he went. He was a sweetheart with just the right amount of tough mixed in I'm afraid all that will be replaced by the toughguy he's going to have to be to get by in there. On top of that he's a little guy about 5'8" and 145lbs. There are gonna be alot of guys in there who think they can push him around. So I'm worried about him having to fight his way through life the next few years. So with all this on my mind it makes it hard to worry about some of the little things on the outside. So thats why, wrong or not, I relish these non-phone call days so I can at least try, to worry about me for a day.