Waking kota up this morning was no problem. Tonight he goes to karate. It is so neat to see him so excited!

So I got to thinking last night, always a dangerous thing for me. While I am taking care of the needs of everyone and struggling to work with Kota on his issues, I thought what about me? Once again I have let my own needs and wants fall by the wayside. Whatever happened to me working on creating jewelry? I get so much joy out of that. It takes me to a different world. So today I am going to finally set up my jewelry area in the spare bedroom. We cleaned it out months ago but still my supplies sit in boxes. A gentle reminder that I have placed my own dreams on a shelf. And really, you cannot care for other people when you yourself are lacking for any creative outlet.

I have alot of organizing to do before I can work on jewelry. some of my containers of beads dumped out into the box. What fun that will be, separating all those tiny beads into individual containers. But I cannot wait to start back on the jewelry.

I have some errands to run today and I think I need to pick up some more organizers for beads. I also need to replenish my supply of beads. For that  I go online, better prices than going to craft stores around here.

It is very calming for me, creating jewelry designs in my mind and then seeing them come to life. It takes my mind off of any problems or worries.

Wish me luck!

Comments:

Sounds great! It's always important to have a creative outlet.

You MUST take one hour a day for yourself!!!! What's the hour you are picking?? No excuses--pick it NOW!!!

comment by grumpy on Apr 30, 2008 5:06 PM ()

that is for sure grumpy! I have gotten so busy with life that I forgot about myself.

reply by elkhound on Apr 30, 2008 5:25 PM ()

Kota is going to love karate that is sooo his thing!! It's awesome of u to get him involved in this, he'll be a black belt b4 u kno it haha! N also having ur own outlet is important for u! U must take care of u too Marbear

comment by starlite on Apr 30, 2008 1:51 PM ()

you should have seen him at class tonight! he was focused! he really loves it and I think it is going to do wonders for him. now I need to work on myself.

reply by elkhound on Apr 30, 2008 5:02 PM ()

comment by lunarhunk on Apr 30, 2008 12:37 PM ()

I would be happy with 15 minutes to myself!

reply by elkhound on Apr 30, 2008 5:01 PM ()

Good luck and YES! Focus on you... you need it!
I wish I was going to be around tomorrow to see how Kota liked Karate!
I hope he looooves it!

comment by kristilyn3 on Apr 30, 2008 12:22 PM ()

have a great time! and yes kota loved it!!!!

reply by elkhound on Apr 30, 2008 5:00 PM ()

Sounds like a good plan for you and for Kota. I'm sure you'll both enjoy your new projects..

comment by elfie33 on Apr 30, 2008 9:52 AM ()

I barely got started today on the jewelry. its a bigger task than I thought! but it was just nice going through what I have and thinking of what I need.

reply by elkhound on Apr 30, 2008 5:00 PM ()

This remind me of the song from Dreamgirls.
"What About Me"did you see this one.
Your right what about me.I need some TLC.
Why not

comment by fredo on Apr 30, 2008 9:32 AM ()

I haven't seen dreamgirls, I need to watch it sometime! that is one I have to watch when hubby isn't home. he does not like dancing or singing in movies.

reply by elkhound on Apr 30, 2008 4:58 PM ()

Yep Mary, if you don't do something for yourself, you'll go nuts. I remember being in that exact space. Now it is better, I've learned some balance in a relatively unbalanced world. Anyway, love you, you hang in there...P.S. have fun with separating those beads. Hey did you ever think that Kota might help? Make a game of it. Race him and I bet he'd do it for a cookie!(Make it a healthy cookie, you know how I am)

comment by teacherwoman on Apr 30, 2008 7:25 AM ()

I think I would rather not have kota's help. he has 'helped' me before with my beads.
I am good at setting routines for everyone else but not myself. I think that is what I need to do. so that each day I have a little time for myself.

reply by elkhound on Apr 30, 2008 4:56 PM ()

Eh I just had an idea, maybe you could gain some custom through the Karate parents, take some samples with you tonight - you'll be rich in no time

comment by lynnie on Apr 30, 2008 7:20 AM ()

I search for money making opportunities, I can can get so bad, I hope I get to heaven one day

reply by lynnie on Apr 30, 2008 7:25 AM ()

thats a great idea! see you are a great business woman!!!

reply by elkhound on Apr 30, 2008 7:22 AM ()

comment by dkelly on Apr 30, 2008 5:57 AM ()

us moms are very bad at neglecting ourselves. and really how can we make others happy when we feel so blah, like we are just existing and not living life.

reply by elkhound on Apr 30, 2008 6:59 AM ()

I know what you mean about putting your own dreams on a shelf to care for everyone else...that's what I was doing yesterday.Good luck finding your dream again, Mary...not that you'll need it!Try to lose yourself in the organizing and see it as stepping closer to regaining your dream.

comment by janetk on Apr 30, 2008 5:27 AM ()

thanks janet! I have been feeling so blah lately and I realized its because I am not doing anything I like doing. My days are about cleaning, cooking, feeding animals. I have felt like a big blob who is just here to take care of everyone else. when I want to yell, what about me!!!

reply by elkhound on Apr 30, 2008 5:34 AM ()

you HAVE to take time for yourself. don't give up on what makes you feel good. we aren't as good for other people when we aren't good to ourselves. I wish i had some creative talent....i always wanted to do beading/jewelry, but anything i have tried to make looks like a 4 year old did it. maybe i'm too hard on myself. anyways...take it from one who has let their own dreams become distant memories.....so distant i don't even know what it is that i like to do.......i'm trying to find 'me' again. hugs to ya.

comment by dakmom on Apr 30, 2008 5:25 AM ()

thanks for the encouragement! I have tried every craft imaginable and they all turned out big messes.jewelry is the only one I have succeeded at. my advice, is just keep trying different things until you find something you really like and are good at.
I have been unhappy lately and I believe it is because I take no time for myself. I should know better but its easy to fall into that trap of taking care of everyone else.

reply by elkhound on Apr 30, 2008 5:32 AM ()

You're always lucky

comment by mustakim on Apr 30, 2008 5:13 AM ()

maybe I should play the lottery!

reply by elkhound on Apr 30, 2008 5:17 AM ()