I have a head cold. Nothing too bad right now. I have not answered my comments from my previous post. My head feels like it is filled with lead.

There will only be further complaining so click out if you don't want to hear it. *grin*

I have not been sleeping for the last week. My dark circles under my eyes make me look like I have two black eyes. Worry, my constant companion.

sometimes it just feels like my life is totally off the track and heading for some major collision.

I just want a good nights sleep with no thoughts entering my head keeping me awake all night.

I feel I am on the right path now but if it is in time to prevent the train wreck, who knows.

I will be back to myself in a few days. Anytime I get sick my bad thoughts become more so. I can't brush them off.

I'm tired of handling everything. nuff said there

I want to run away and start over.

I want life to be easier for a change.

I want one hour of total silence.

I wish I had a magic wand to help my friends and make all their troubles go away.

I wish someone would hold my hand and tell me it will all be ok.

I wish their was a category for scatter brain thoughts

Comments:

I know exactly how you feel!

There is no magic wand to give you all of the things on your wish list, but one of the things listed requires no magic at all! That hour to yourself? I am an expert at worrying because I am always anxious, but I have learned to take a long- very long - hot bath to escape for a time. Take care!

Mary, the practical part of your brain and heart knows this will pass, so ride it out until the better moments shine through. They will come. You know this. Until then, I hope you start to feel better real soon.

Worry is misplaced imagination...there's a great gift available to us always, and that is the "present". For it is the only time we can affect change or take action. The running mind always needs a rest...a departure from conditioning...the moment when all great things are possible...try meditation...or think of three good things in your life and then each day do three good things for other people each day...when we do good, we feel good. Best of luck and then of course go google "Candid Camera"...laughing is the best remedy for anything!

feel better Mary, it WILL be ok

comment by firststarisee on Aug 15, 2008 7:24 AM ()

I sure hope so, but I am really tired of fighting this constant battle.

reply by elkhound on Aug 15, 2008 8:29 AM ()

Oh mary Im so sorry, why now in it? I hope you feel better soon. hugs xxxxx

comment by lynnie on Aug 15, 2008 4:36 AM ()

right now I feel like I stepped in a major pile of poop! or maybe I am the poop! ugh! I will get through it, somehow someway.

reply by elkhound on Aug 15, 2008 6:31 AM ()

I understand what you are talking about. I have been there myself. The rain clouds will pass and the sun will shine again. Hang in there, my friend.

comment by hopefields on Aug 14, 2008 10:28 PM ()

thanks kelli, I am waiting for the sun to come out again. and maybe there will be a rainbow.

reply by elkhound on Aug 15, 2008 6:30 AM ()

I'm a pretty good hand holder if you need one Mary...and it will get better...it gets sucky sometimes, but things do even out. Take some meds, get some rest, drink lots of fluids. *hugs and snugs*

comment by elfie33 on Aug 14, 2008 7:40 PM ()

there's those hugs I needed! I get tired of living under this dark cloud and trying to live up to everyone's expectations. (not my greasy friends)

reply by elkhound on Aug 15, 2008 6:29 AM ()

Been there, got the tee shirt. I don't like the way it fits, either! I'm here for you. Just whistle...or drop an e-mail!

comment by mzscarlett on Aug 14, 2008 6:51 PM ()

thanks C, sent you an email. just wish I had a cave to hide in for a while.

reply by elkhound on Aug 15, 2008 6:27 AM ()

I'm holding your hand--hugging you--telling you everything will be okay--that life will/does get better--look at hubby and Kota--they love you--and so do we

comment by greatmartin on Aug 14, 2008 6:38 PM ()

aww martin, I am glad you are my friend. and I feel somewhat guilty cuz I know there are people alot worse off than me. I will get through this with the help of my friends.

reply by elkhound on Aug 15, 2008 6:26 AM ()

comment by marta on Aug 14, 2008 6:29 PM ()

thanks martha, my online friends are the best

reply by elkhound on Aug 14, 2008 6:32 PM ()

I'll hold your hand... and tell you "it's gonna be fine."

comment by cindy on Aug 14, 2008 6:29 PM ()

thanks cindy, its just been one of those weeks. I should have faith it will be ok, it usually is. just having a hard time believing it this time.

reply by elkhound on Aug 14, 2008 6:31 PM ()

I wish I was there to hold your hand and to tell you everything will be ok.Get some rest and try to get a good nights sleep.Things may look brighter tomorrow.I want to runaway everyday but I love my 5 fur-babies too much.How's the job at Wal-Mart looking,did you get hired?Feel better.(((((HUGS)))))Laurie

comment by dogsalot on Aug 14, 2008 6:26 PM ()

I am just waiting for the drug test results and the background screening. I couldn't leave my fur kids either, but it would be nice to get away for even one day, just by myself.

reply by elkhound on Aug 14, 2008 6:29 PM ()

I want to run away as well... where shall we go?
I hope ya feel better soon...

comment by kristilyn3 on Aug 14, 2008 6:26 PM ()

at this point i will go anywhere! the mountains, the ocean, the desert even!

reply by elkhound on Aug 14, 2008 6:28 PM ()