AL went to pay a house pymt today and gave a puppy away.We are down to 2.I still  miss Duchess but not the heartache.I know good people have the puppies.I just wish i  could have picked a couple for her.I swear i worry about the littlest bugs,fly,crazy shit.I shouldn't even think of.I used to not.All of the sudden I'm worried about swatting a fly.I think well when it flies to the window I'll raise the screen and it'll be free.What the hell is that??Do you knowhave a clue what is going on with my mind?I used to stand up for myself about anything now,I catch myself just fuming because i should have said something.Silent all of the sudden.(silent rage)Nothing is sudden,i know it starts slow and progresses.So it had to start somewhere,and why?I know I'm late night rambling,I'm done 4 now.See ya in the morning..Angie

Comments:

Angie, resentment is a tough wall to bring down. You have to live for yourself because if you don't, you're really not the best of yourself to be able to give to others (Like I know you want to do)

comment by shesaidwhat on June 5, 2008 5:15 AM ()

Where and how do i even start?

reply by fobstateside on June 5, 2008 10:53 AM ()