It seems that without the gravitational force of Johnny telling her what to do the little satellite slave known as Holly has nigh unto utterly reverted back into the same old habits that she was in when she met me in the first place. After a barrage of thinly veiled insults and smarmy backhanded comments she posts an amusing play list featuring one song “Johnny are you Queer?” I hope that when the drunken bravery wore off you felt a little bit better in your heart because that kind of behavior is exactly what got you into the predicament that you now find yourself in. No matter how hard you try to deny or disguise what you are doing the fact of the matter is that even with this “kiss my ass” attitude that you have developed all you are really doing is showing everyone exactly why I chose to loan you out to Miss Beka.

Despite the resounding efforts that I've made to turn you the direction that you need to grow, both as a person and as my little slave girl my efforts were for naught. Though it pains me in my little black heart to say this, maybe you were right about me. You did exactly what I thought you would do in this situation and that was to lash out at me with adolescence and sophomoric drama in some attempt to validate yourself. What you should be doing is seeing what it is that I did for you in sending you off on this indoctrination course that I've sent you out on.

You were and are still my perfect little project but it is going to have to take a hand that is not my own to get her back to me. The reasons for this are myriad but the biggest one is still that you have grown to accustomed to my hand and you need a tune up that is going to sink through the knowledge that you played on my sensibilities to manipulate me into not doing what I needed to do to ensure what you were doing was the right thing.

While you didn't fail to surprise me in this reaction to what is happening to you I am a bit disappointed in you Holly. I always had managed to foster the hope that you would see this for what it is and not for what you imagine it to be. I have never kept a slave as long as you and so you felt safe with me. A certain amount of trust in needed in order to make what we have going work but the fact of the matter is that once you felt too safe the methodology of my training you became less and less effective until a series of incidents that led to you clothes being packed into garbage bags.

So when you proudly display that you are breaking the very specific rules that I have laid out for you I am forced to start to wonder if you can do what I need you to do at all. If there is no chance that you can be not only a receptacle for my cock and cum but also for the pruning and the prodding that is involved in maintaining a near perfect slave then you are of no further use to me.

I'll give you the chance to decide what you feel you need to do because as you know I feel that apologies are unnecessary.

Comments:

comment by caralynnfarley on May 1, 2008 11:42 AM ()

ok

reply by caralynnfarley on May 5, 2008 7:03 AM ()

That is fine as soon as eddie is back on i am quite sure your comments will be removed and should you continue to harass me or mine you can go play at my space when you are banned.

You really need to read the TOS,oops wait you did not understand that the last time i told you to read it, That is the terms of service of this blogsite. You have violated them.

reply by mmmhollywould on May 2, 2008 12:50 PM ()

oh an regardless of whether i am a teen or not... this is still PUBLICLY POSTED so i can read it and comment on it in any way that i please...
ok... buh bye now....


xoxox

reply by caralynnfarley on May 2, 2008 11:40 AM ()

well once again i will let you know that its PUBLICLY POSTED and i am part of the public... so i have free reign to "open my mouth" in any way that i please and i have the prerogative to say whatever i damn well please about what is PUBLICLY POSTED... if you don't like it... don't PUBLICLY POST anything...or else get over it....

peace out

reply by caralynnfarley on May 2, 2008 11:39 AM ()

Both would apply to publicly posting them.

reply by mmmhollywould on May 1, 2008 7:05 PM ()

Secondly, if you knew a thing about this type of lifestyle then it would be okay for you to open your mouth, however you do not.

reply by mmmhollywould on May 1, 2008 7:04 PM ()

If you had half a brain you would notice there is a "teen" section. It is there for a reason use deductive thought please.

reply by mmmhollywould on May 1, 2008 7:04 PM ()

so maybe i am a teenager but that doesn't mean that i don't know what is going on around me... or that i don't understand what i read.... and maybe you are a little too hung up on yourself...i do live my own life #######... i just feel free enough to comment on others... because i can and will speak my mind to anyone however i choose to. i never said you had to agree with what i said... and i never said you had to take any suggestions from me.

and i sir, am anything but small minded.... maybe you are the one with a small mind...because any sick #### that "loans" out a girl or thinks he has the power to loan out ANYBODY needs to come into the century... she has the free will to go and do any thing she wants... i do accept people for who they are and blah blah blah.

i personally just think you are ###### up in the head... a waste to the planet... and someone unnecessary breathing my precious oxygen.

so unless you don't enjoy reading my comments... maybe you shouldn't post #### like this for the public to freely read....

peace out cub scout... later.

I'm gonna have to go with CLF on this one, at first i was alright with the whole sadist thing because like i said to each his own, but you know what, that is fuked up i'm sure she has a reason to have left you and she doesn't belong to you (so you seem to believe) the only people women belong to...are themselves.It seems like to me by posting this little rant you seem to be more hung up on her than she seems to be on you. So grow the fuk up and move.

comment by roosarefromaustralia on Apr 28, 2008 12:23 PM ()

Ummmm i am more grown up than you will ever be and i will visit whenever the hell i feel like so you can suck my dick.

reply by roosarefromaustralia on May 2, 2008 11:50 AM ()

I did not leave him, he has loaned me out and I do belong to him.

Come visit again when you grow up.

reply by mmmhollywould on Apr 30, 2008 6:40 PM ()

really you shouldn't be loaning people out...like i said she doesn't belong to you, you need to get your head out of your ass and stop being such a dick to realize that everything you say, isn't what everyone believes.

reply by roosarefromaustralia on Apr 30, 2008 11:42 AM ()

I kicked her out of HER house. Just setting the record straight. I loaned her to someone else

reply by jtruant on Apr 30, 2008 7:51 AM ()

okay.... so i try to be an open minded person... but honestly, i dont think i can open my mind anymore.... Holly as your SLAVE?? i thought maybe she was your girlfriend or something... but where do you get off degrading women to the point where she is your slave?? i mean maybe she is degrading herself to even let herself be your slave but i mean... come the fuk on.... Jesus H. Christ.

and for all she knows you are queer.... i mean you do sexual things with men. i know its for money but... there have to be homosexual tendencies to even choose that as a career.... so why dont you get off your high horse or throw yourself off it... or wtf ever....

comment by caralynnfarley on Apr 28, 2008 12:11 PM ()

she makes a good point... if this is what you call harassing then we aren't harassing you anymore than you are us.... so you keep replying to what we say and we will keep this thing going for as long as you want....

reply by caralynnfarley on May 2, 2008 12:04 PM ()

here you go again with the whole age thing again like you are so so much older then us.... what you are like 25ish?? hardly that much older... and as far as my maturity goes you have no earthly idea how mature i am so don't refer to me as a child! Once again you publicly display all of this so don't be shocked when you get comments back whether or not i am 17 or 82. and in NO way are we harassing you... we are simple responding to the things that you say to us... i don't see how you get harassment out of that. have a wonderful day. oh and i made sure not to use any harsh language for you didn't know it would offend you so!

reply by oodlesofnoodles on May 2, 2008 11:59 AM ()

and if we can't contribute to any "worth while disscussion" as you call it... why do you continue discussing it with us???

yeah... thats what i thought.....

always remember those big boy pants....

later.

reply by caralynnfarley on May 2, 2008 11:46 AM ()

whatever... you continue this by replying to what we say.. so if you wanna act like the bigger person here maybe you should put your big boy pants on first....

practice what you preach.

reply by caralynnfarley on May 2, 2008 11:44 AM ()

I will warn you of this now. I personally have never bothered to ask for someone to be removed, banned, warned or blocked from a site but I will do this if any of the three of you continue.

Everything I write is for grown ups be they blogs about sex religion or politics. There are rules in the terms of service at this site about harassment and derogatory comments. I deal well with these comments from adults because I can answer to them however I cannot have these discussions with children, I will not get in a discussion of my lifestyle with children. That is for your parents to explain to you not the internet.

I have had no need to come to any of your blogs and use foul language but for some reason you feel the need to do that at both mine and Johnny's. Mind, were you adults I would handle it as I saw fit.

You have stepped into murky water where you neither have the maturity or intellect to contribute any worth while discussion.

reply by mmmhollywould on May 1, 2008 7:25 PM ()

well...i was going to say something but oods and CLF said it all. you need to take a look at life and realize that jt is ###### up in the head...something is seriously wrong for him to think that way about women, ###### up i tell you.

reply by roosarefromaustralia on May 1, 2008 12:17 PM ()

dumb dumb dumb. its degrading because... well first of all if you let yourself be his slave... you obviously dont have respect for yourself as a woman let alone a human being... and to give him that power over you to make him think he is above you and worth that power is sick...

he obviously doesn't have enough in his pants to make him feel like a man so he has to make himself feel that way by "ruling over someone" wayy to feed into that shitt....

reply by caralynnfarley on May 1, 2008 12:10 PM ()

that is degrading on so many different levels... so ###### up. i cant believe that you let him call you his slave... i mean wow!! that is a shocker... he is a guy not your owner and i understand that you both have quite weird occupations but still you are a woman... not a man's slave.and he loans you out.... like you are some kind of yo yo he just reels in whenever he want you? And i agree with clf and roo's that is just straight ###### up. and how would you consider this a conversation... he posted this blog for people to read and if he didn't want people to comment on it positive or not he shouldn't have posted it plain and simple.

reply by oodlesofnoodles on May 1, 2008 12:00 PM ()

I am his slave and why exactly is that degrading?

He is not queer I was ####### with him.

What makes you think he is gay because he likes to beat the #### out of Men?

reply by mmmhollywould on Apr 30, 2008 6:42 PM ()

Do you actually have any idea of what I do for a living really? I put on shows with girls around the world. The guys thing came about much later on and thus your point is moot at best. Here's a thought free of charge, why don't you try living your own life and deciding what you feel is best for you rather than deciding to project your own slightly naive sense of teenage morality on people who have actually decided what they want to do with themselves.

It is good that you feel so strongly about this that you felt the need to let me know that you were alright with the sadism thing but if I ever found myself even considering to attempt to cater to the needs of small minded people like you I would be sitting in an institution right now and not out there in the world and succeeding with a personality "problem" that many other like me have failed to.

Now all that being said, have a nice day. As far as your opinion regarding my sexuality goes I suggest you look up the definition of sexual sadism, sociopathy, and malignant narcissism.

reply by jtruant on Apr 30, 2008 7:50 AM ()