With everything that is going on in my life right now, I'm beginning to wonder about the elusive truth. So many stories from so many people and it's hard to know who to belive.

Personally, I'm "painfully" honest. Not painfully in a way to hurt other people, but completely and totally honest with myself and when I speak with others. Do I believe that the truth can be told without being blunt, while still being honest? Yes. And another thing I've learned...just because I believe it, doesn't make it truth. It just makes it truth to me. Confusing? Perhaps, but still it is what it is -- to coin a phrase which actually infuriates me.

Do I dodge the truth? No. I try with all my heart and soul to be honest in all things, even in my anger at injustice. Here's what I've figured out about life. The media could care less what the truth is, they only want to sell papers or airtime. The police could really care less what truth is, they just want closure to their questions. Lawyers...well that's another matter. Show me an honest lawyer and I'll show you a broke lawyer. Not too many of those around.

I'm honest with my life, my job and with my family. I try not to hurt people, but I will not lie to them. I also know when not to speak and when to speak. Right now, not speaking causes must speculation, but I can live with speculation. It's hard when people are pointing fingers at your family and saying hurtful things without realizing that there are flesh and blood people behind the names and the news.

Yep, you guessed it, I'm exhausted once again. If you are reading this, thank you for allowing me to be angry...one more time. Somehow in the midst of pointed fingers, I pray each day that someone will actually tell the elusive truth.

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