‹ chat statusI just got back from wogging, it's not exactly walking and it's not jogging. It's sort of a walk-jog which I dubbed "wogging." I like it. I have the almost sensation of running, but it doesn't cause me to get as out of breath and it's a bit smoother than jogging, so I don't feel it in my knees as much. I'm up to about 2.5 miles of wogging which is more of a workout than a 4 mile walk. I sweat like crazy,yes, guys women do sweat, and I come home satisfied that I've done something to help myself.
Now let me explain that I've fought the word "fat" all my life. Yes, that word has irritated me along with "plump", "chubby" (which really burns my bullets) and "chunky."I remember the first time I had a cute swimsuit and went to a party at our lake, a teenage guy (who I'd love to throttle even all these years later)said, "Come on, chubby." I think I hid behind a tree for the rest of the day.
I hate those words but I've used them on myself for years. I really sort of embrace "overweight" which could be 5 lbs. The doctors call "obese" 20 lbs overweight. I am, right now, about 20 lbs overweight and no more. So, by my doctor's standards, yep, I'm obese. But not in my mind... I've come down from a size 2X to a 12-14, which is a huge difference to me. After fighting my weight all my life, I finally have come to an understanding...
I'll never be able to eat like I did before and I can't sit around all day and watch TV and stay healthy. Been there, done that! I will till the day I die, have to watch every bite and stay active, and you know, it's not that bad really. I actually sort of like healthy food and there's something satisfying about my exercise.
Do I break over? Yes, yesterday was such a rushed day that for dinner I had a barbecue beef sandwich on a whole wheat bun with 5 Pringles chips and boy did it taste good! Will I pay for it? Yes, that's why I wogged an extra bit this a.m. and for sure I will cut back on my calories today. I know the drill.
You know what's funny? I don't want all the sweets and stuff I used to crave. Birthday cake makes me sick now and I can't even eat a sweetart without tasting all that sugar. What I like is the salty stuff and that's dangerous. I love, chips and pretzels, popcorn and crackers, (I'm making my mouth water)
So, I made a decision about 2 years ago to start and keep exercising and I have, and I made a decision about 9 months ago to start eating intelligently and know my limits. For the most part, I'm pretty good about it, but I do have my weaker moments. Dark chocolate is my only sweet craving. Yesterday I had 3 small Hershey's dark nuggets with almonds and truthfully, though I felt I was being sinful, I loved it. Today, I will have no chocolate, though my Hershey's Dark Chocolate 60 calorie sticks are safe in my fridge. They call to me, but today I will opt for veggies. Oh well, so goes the life.
It was hard to start, harder to keep going and even daily it's a battle, but is it worth it? I no longer shop in "women's" sizes (which I've been stuck in for years), of course now with Lane Bryant you can still look stylish and be heavier. I have lower blood pressure (my reason for beginning all this in the first place), lower cholesterol, no heart problems and my back hasn't hurt in a year. I guess, yes, it's worth it. I'll keep doing it. It takes tremendous self-discipline every day of my life and sometimes I break -- but not today -- although it is football and boy would I love some wings...just thinking out loud. Later.
posted on Sept 6, 2008 9:23 AM ()
you deserve to be proud
Smooches, thanks!
Yep 5 of those suckers!
I have a problem with the medical establishment setting the standard of over 20lbs =obese. In my mind, obese is Gilbert Grape's mother and the guy they had to take out of his house with a crane. Like you, my major downfalls are sweets and salty snacks. I wish I could still walk around the block like I used to. I always loved getting out in the early morn before work with my Walkman on and walk a good 20 minutes. It made me feel so good and ready to take on the day. I miss that so much
Wog on, sweetie!!
I've had those moments! It is a battle that I will continue on. I've lost about 48 lbs since last January. Still 20 more to go and I'll be right where I want to be -- who cares if it isn't a size 5!
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