‹ chat statusI guess I haven't been much into blogging lately. I have a lot going on here. Mainly my Mom still being in the hospital. I am really concerned about her. She did look good last night and has color back in her cheeks. Her problem is the chronic bronchitis/COPD that is on-going and not the contagious kind. She also has had a flare up with her Congestive Heart Failure and apparently her Renal Failure is worse. They had her on a strict cardiac diet and then they switched it to a strict renal diet. So, I don't know for sure when she can come home. They have a patch on her for her angina and have increased her B/P meds and added an ace inhibitor to help with that. Her B/P had gotten too high and they called in her cardiologist. It doesn't sound good. I worry about how much longer she will be able to live on her own in her apartment. It is just something that bothers me a lot I guess. I wish that I could make her well and just wave a magic wand and she feel good all of the time again and we could go shopping and hang out like we used to. I think about those times and really miss them a LOT!!! She loves living where she does more so than*anywhere* she has ever lived before. She lived with us for two years before she moved into her apartment there at the retirment center. It has been good for her because she has made friends and enjoyed the get togethers there and all. Somehow, I am feeling guilty I guess and wondering if she would have stayed here with us would she be in better shape now. At the same time while she was living here with us she wasn't as outgoing and didn't have the friends her age like she does now. I know it is just me and letting my mind wander and think. Think way too much. And her doctor's have told me before that it is part of the process of what is wrong with her and in time it worsens. So, that answers my question. I am the youngest of four kids. I have always felt like I needed to look out for her even as a young child. My Dad got sick when I was 10 years old and passed away three days before my 18th birthday. He was in and out of the hospital the whole time I was growing up. I have always tried to be strong. I guess I grew up that way I don't know. Also promising my Dad that I would take care of her and he could rest in peace and he did. So, I have always taken that on very strongly. Right now I need to just focus on not worrying about what I cannot change. It is very, very hard for me to do. My feelings have always run very deep and it is hard to accept what can't be changed. I guess this is partly why I haven't blogged lately. It is too hard to write this. It is too hard to feel it but, it is what it is. No matter what I do whatever will be, will be and I can't change the outcome. If only I could I would. If only the movie Cocoon could really happen. To be young, vibrant, healthy, and feel good again. For those who don't know what the movie is about here is a synopsis in a nutshell. These elderly people who live in a retirement center swim in a pool that has this object in it. They start healing and feel young again and have *no health problems*.
posted on July 8, 2008 5:28 AM ()
Thanks hon!!
It is hard. I am thankful that she got to go home yesterday. We went up and saw her, visited for awhile and did some shopping for her.
Nena 
Yes, Mom is the same way she would rather live on her own have her independence and I don't blame her. She lived with us for two years after we moved her out here. She loves her apartment and her community there with her friends and activities they do. She has to be on a strict Renal diet and we are going to see if we can make some things in advance for her. Also do some shopping to get what she needs to eat. 
Looks like she will be getting to go home today. I have talked to her three times so far today. Scott and I will be going up there when he gets off from work this afternoon. She has to be on a strict Renal diet (Kidney) so, we are going to go shopping for her and see what we can come up with. Going to see if I can make some meals for her and freeze them that way she can just pop them in the microwave and heat them up and eat.
Trying to do just that.
I am so sorry to hear your Mom is still in the hospital.Don't forget to take care of yourself too.Hang in there.I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.Laurie
I am trying to do just that.
My Mom lives closer to me now only about 20 miles away. For 18 years she was in Kentucky and 8 years of that time we were in New Mexico and 1100 miles away from her. Then we moved to Texas and was closer to her but still 700 miles away. So, I know what you mean. We moved Mom out here with us a little over 8 years ago because of her health problems. It is hard and you just want to do everything and know that you can do everything.
Wish I could be more attentive and help my Mom out more but without a vehicle and money to give her, it makes things very difficult; plus I am the only child and my Dad has passed. Will not be blogging a lot either on this site. You'll probably see something from me here and there
First off, I am the owner and moderator of a "Big Brother" tv show group on Yahoo so once that starts, it is fairly time consuming. Aside from that, really have to put my nose to the grindstone and find a job!!! That is my number one priority right now. Blogging just seems to take up too much time and I get such little enthusiasm or responses, I feel that my time is wasted at this point. Finally, I am so sick of the reactions and comments I am getting from liberals on this site
This one dude, bumpedoff aka Jason, is getting on my last nerve; he has attacked me for my Catholic beliefs, accused all priests of being pedophiles (????), and then went on to make a spectacle of himself by posting a blog on pedophile Priests
Fricking nasty human being to put it mildly. IMO, this dude is a whackjob and should be removed from this site. His blogs are copycats of a certain other bloggers, and the hysterical part is he doesn't even live in America and claims to know all about our political system. 
Am feeling very anxious today and having a hard time catching my breath for some reason; lots of stress at home unfortunately, and the attacks and criticisms I receive from certain bloggers doesn't help
God Bless Jen...we'll talk soon, Brian
That is good.
She has that and the loss of kidney function even more, the congestive heart failure and the ciaphus I think that is how it is spelled. It is the curvature of her spine and caving of her chest and bony structures and severe osteoporosis. So, a LOT going on with her. Even at home where she lives she has an aide to do her cleaning, laundry, ect. A nurse that comes out and physical therapist, and occupational therapist. They are trying to do all of this so she can stay in her home long as possible because they know she wants to.
I wish I had that magic wand for you too sis. your mom is a wonderful person and we all care for her so much. she could not ask for a better daughter in you! its good to be strong but its also good to ask your friends for help, for a shoulder to lean on through tough times. and we are here for you and your family. love you!
I do appreciate your thoughts and kind words!! I have been telling her that her friends and blog friends by name are missing her and asking about her.
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