OK...well here i am , writing a likely boring article about my-so-called great life....haha what a total lie that is! well ok,.,,my life aint horrible but not exactly very interesting , fun , entertaining , wild exciting....JUST BORING IIGTH!! TOTALLY BORING !! ok...so this morning as sitting in my very fun homeroom which is other words may just be a wasteful 10 minute period of the scfhool day:D...and anyways as i was sitting talking to my lovely darling friend linda....I recieved my report card! ohhh man....worst thing i ever seen with the lowest average and school marks ever...holay!! i recieved all 50 % 's and just like blahhh,,,,really saddening!! :'(.,...i wanted to burst into tears! but i was strong and held in all my emotions.....i didnt get a mark for like writing class because all i ever do....is like do my makeup...talk and gossip and like just pass notes with rebecca!! haha,....but i gotta get myself in better shape and start bringing my grades,,,,,UP! ....cant fail twice again this year ,...thats for damn sure!...so im aiming to achieve between 85 and 95% marks which seems impossible to most ppl but i believe in it:)..anyhow tonigth as i was walking and saw well a long lost family member that i see everyday in school , is very much real blood to me and somebody that disowes his own family everyday of his life over the past like 5 years now!! and we are talking about my older brother who i rarely speak to , only on special occassions like christmas or a odd run-in !!! and anyhow it really makes me sad and wonder lots of different things...my family is like so broken and torn apart in hate...everybody just thinks our family is rigth normal but its not...we are all living so seperate (un)happy lives where we are one big family but none of us really communicate or like each other.,,,,there is disowning , hate , dispite , silent fueds....its just a very dyfunctional family that is really just confusing and very dissapointing,,,families should usually stick together and as least not hate blood....it isnt rigth! sometimes i do think there is something missing in my life and that is good healthy communicating realionships with my siblings and my parents and other relatives....and i know i will never miss those missing pieces because my family is so seperated and distanced that we will just live our lives never really knowing our close family members that well and just live in a silence,,,and i know i will go on with all my chapers in my journey throughtout life , never experiencing much with family members,...but the blanks will always stay blank,,,,,thats what inspired my idea of writing a book! ........