an illusion of control.
these are random thoughts;
no form;
couples don't act on one another.
they act in accordance.

trust the direction in which you're being guided to move.
free will, but no coincidences.

i will work on her about the car.
vermont is only a 5 hour drive away from janet--at least the part I will live in.

we dont mean what we say when we fight. life is too short, and love is too important.

i have always seen my legs and my body as my burden.
during the six hour call we talked about burden and modification, working in tandem.
the necklace she gave me signifies the strength of two.

nesting is important, intimate.
her hand on my chest; the heat of Reiki. the calmness she brings me when she is in her sacred place.

i'm relearning some things.

oddly shy now.

We watched Brokeback Mountain.
Very good movie.
nuance, and subtlety.
Doesn't spell things out.
I like movies like that.

If you haven't seen it, do.
The shirt is a character.
pay attention.
pay attention to all things.

take what works.
leave the rest.

Comments:

And wouldn't you know that the page took a long time to load, as usual for your blog and we know that bad, bad things happen when the page takes a long time....

comment by janetk on Aug 11, 2008 7:26 AM ()

yes we know!

reply by turftoe331 on Aug 11, 2008 7:31 AM ()

This was hypnotizing.

comment by janetk on Aug 10, 2008 8:17 AM ()

reply by turftoe331 on Aug 11, 2008 4:53 AM ()

I'm glad you liked it don

I'm glad you're re-learning what love is and isn't. I'm going through this process too. Tough at times but so rewarding. In ways I've felt my body was broken, defective too. It's so important that we all learn to love ourselves. We're so lucky to have others who love us enough for both of us (when we just can't see our own worth or beauty)

comment by firststarisee on Aug 9, 2008 4:33 PM ()

So right and beautifully said!

reply by turftoe331 on Aug 10, 2008 6:40 AM ()

Ditto times 10! Well said.

reply by shesaidwhat on Aug 10, 2008 3:51 AM ()