I had to pick a channel for the blog. So many could apply right now but I went with divorce. It seems that so many things are pushing me towards the neon sign of singletown.....

Its been only 8 months of marriage.....a good run if I were a celebrity. But Im not and this is my second marriage. So I am apprehensive to choose this route. I have been reading that couples that stick it out usually end up happier in the long run and better off, but at this point in the game, I just cant see how that could possibly happen. It wasnt always like this either. Our relationship. We were two that I thought would last a lifetime. But it seems day by day reality chips away into what I thought was perfect, and I realize more and more that we just may not make it.

Then there are the kids. His, and mine. Together just two, but two that have been through so much already in their short lives. How could we even consider putting them through anything like this. We dont make love, I dont feel in love, and I dont know how he feels but I'm guessing its running along the same lines. There is a valley between us and the bridge is falling apart. I dont want to cross over. I want him to. But he is standing on the other side wondering if it is safe.

This is not where I want to be.

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