]> http://greasy.com/unlovable78/ unlovable78's Blog en-us © 03:17:10 Greasy.com All rights reserved. Tue, Dec 03:17:10 2 GMT 30 http://greasy.com/unlovable78/come_back.html I've been struggling with this divorce for many months now and I can't begin to fathom why he keeps popping back into my life only to provide false hope and chaos. It's all this big game. I start to heal from the experience and he's right there with just the right words, the right manipulation to weazel his way in. I know it's my fault, I know I let him. But when you still love some one so much and they lead you down this path and you believe in them, in their goodness, it's hard to rememb ... http://greasy.com/unlovable78/come_back.html#comments Tue, 15 Jan 2008 07:41:26 GMT http://greasy.com/unlovable78/mountain.html There is a hill nestled in the Big Sur Forrest that kicked my butt last year. Friends of ours had told us about the adventures backpacking and I couldn't wait to experience this for myself. On our last anniversary we decided to take on this mountain in Big Sur, five miles, all up hill. We were both fat and out of shape and after 21/2 miles we gave up. My goal is to go back to that hill on June 25th, what would be our anniversary, and make it to the top of the hill. I need to concur this hi ... http://greasy.com/unlovable78/mountain.html#comments Wed, 3 Oct 2007 19:45:47 GMT http://greasy.com/unlovable78/void.html When I was child I would wait everyday for my dad to call to say how much he wanted me in his life. Even once I met my dad later and realized the uncaring man he was, I still longed for the connection. Without a father in your life (whether actual or step) there is something missing, a void that cannot be filled by anyone or anything else. I promised I would never do that to a child. I never wanted children and committed to never having one without a marriage. Yet I lay awake staring at my ... http://greasy.com/unlovable78/void.html#comments Wed, 3 Oct 2007 08:57:31 GMT