I've been struggling with this divorce for many months now and I can't begin to fathom why he keeps popping back into my life only to provide false hope and chaos. It's all this big game. I start to heal from the experience and he's right there with just the right words, the right manipulation to weazel his way in. I know it's my fault, I know I let him. But when you still love some one so much and they lead you down this path and you believe in them, in their goodness, it's hard to remember that a wolf lives underneath the sheeps clothing. So here I am again, a little more broken, a little broker, and a little more confused on how any man, any person, could do this to another. If he doesn't want to be with me, leave me alone, let me move on, let me find closure.